23 February 2009

Less Writing, More Thinking

I've written less lately because I've had too much to say. My thoughts have been going in so many different directions, I haven't been able to focus any one of them. I think the only way around this is to do what I had been hoping to avoid: explain everything.

Even after deciding not to get an MBA, I gave a lot of thought to it. I got a call from a school here that has a good program, is relatively cheap, and was willing to waive the GMAT based on my undergraduate GPA. This program also has rolling admission, so I could have started this summer, and be almost done by the time my MFA classes started. I'm looking at two MFA programs and neither has spring admission. One starts in June 2010, the other in September '10. It's kind of anti climatic for me. I finally make a decision and have to wait a year to implement it. I gave the MBA program additional thought because it seemed like a good way to pass the time. Also because several friends recommended it to me, and I do not like to disappoint or ignore advice, But even I know "passing time" is not a good reason to do something as strenuous as getting an MBA. So I'm for real not going to get one. Decided.

Instead I'm going to use this next year before school to prepare. I'm going to actually take the time I have and use it in the best ways I can imagine. It's been a while since I wrote creatively on a regular basis. I know I need the practice. It's also a great opportunity for me to read more, which I want to do anyway. This weekend I wrote out goals by month, starting with February. They're realistic, they're specific, and there are consequences for not meeting them. I work best under deadline.

I'm also trying to get Jesse to go back to school as well. The reality is it's difficult to find a job here. He doesn't have an "in" anywhere. There are about 200 applicants for every opening and with city and state layoffs coming, it's not about to get easier. He doesn't like the idea of potentially living off student loans, because he's never had any debt. (Amazing, I know.) But the alternatives are dwindling. He could move back home and surely find work there - but I'm not good at being apart. He could stay here and I could support us both - but he's not okay with the idea of being "kept" and really, that just wouldn't fly. He can (and will) keep looking and maybe temp as much as possible. But I don't think it can hurt to go back to school in the interim. Plus I don't want to be the only one with homework. That just won't see fair.

There you have them - the things that have been keeping me in my own thoughts and away from my blog. I've also been keeping up with exercising, because I only have 24 pounds (of fat) to go. I've kept off 75ish pounds so far and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm almost done and I'm more motivated than ever.

In case you were wondering, the goals for February are:

- Get my car tuned, touched up, and listed for sale

- Have the proper permit for street parking

- Empty the storage unit in Vegas

- Compile the notes I've taken since I started this job.

Next month: home decor.
~ Danie D.
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