31 March 2007
28 March 2007
20 March 2007
There’s not a whole lot going on with me these days. Lucy and I did hang out with some bikers this weekend. I’ll tell you all about that when I get time, energy, and my computer at the same time. That should be soon.
But I’ve been eating. It’s been fun. I’m not doing much else. I resumed my sessions with my trainer after she gave me an awesome deal. Now I spend my days being sore and my nights hoping that tomorrow won’t be as bad. She has me doing an hour of cardio six days a week, 30 minutes of abs 7 days a week, and a muscle group every other day. She’s way more dedicated to my health than I am. It sounds bad to say but I think it’s true. I would never push myself this hard. Of course I would not get these results either. You can’t see me, but I’m on my way to being buff. And it’s only been 2 days!
Next week I’m going east to see my family and Abby and Tab. I’m really excited. But I have a lot to do before then.
I’m the Secretary for the Las Vegas Association of Black Journalists. I was just nominated and voted in last month. I joined because I felt like I was supposed to do so. But once I did, I found all types of stereotypical disorganization. I was going to quit. Instead I am a board member. We haven’t started focusing on ourselves yet. There’s a national conference coming here in August. We need to have a strong organized showing and make some money at the same time. So we’re working on that. But I think in September I’ll start taking a critical look at our function and what we promote.
But for now it is work and work out. I hardly see Jesse and Lucy. We don’t even have time to watch TV together. So aside from being sore, I’m lonely. ‘Tis a boring, yet productive, life I lead.
03 March 2007
02 March 2007
I think these last hours are the most difficult. It's Friday. I've been up since midnight. I drank my mixture, went to work, went to the gym, went shopping. And now I am ready to eat. To be quite technical, I ate my last just after the Oscars last weekend. So I should be able to eat exactly 5 days later, which would be around 10 tonight. But I'm holding out until midnight, just because I'm strict.
It's silly. I know I can do it. I've already done it. I feel good. I stopped being sluggish on Wednesday. I've been running at almost full steam ever since. I'm still cold. But that might actually be anemia. I haven't been able to give blood in months. That's another issue entirely.
As far as the detox, the other girl doing it with me (Crystal) and I were talking about how social food is. It's hard to explain but think about all the places and ocassions that call for eating. Think about cutting out all of those events and being all by yourself when you do it. It's kind of depressing. Lucy did the detox with me for a couple of days. Then she was about to pass out, so she had to eat. Crystal and I usually work the same hours, but as I was called in three times this week, we barely crossed paths.
I have grapes and veggies ready to go. I really just have to give myself permission. I'll think about it while I take my nap. When I wake up, I'll be that much closer to eating.
I’m going to eat tomorrow! I’m quite excited. I was going to start with broccoli, but on my way to work this morning, I decided to go with oatmeal as my first meal. I like broccoli, but I love oatmeal. I also thought about eating right after midnight, but I don’t want to not eat, and then go to sleep with a full belly. What kind of habit is that? So I’ll wait until Saturday morning. I have a meeting at 9, so it’ll be before then.
There are only four things I really want: Oatmeal, Crepes, hash browns with cheddar cheese, and a barbeque chicken breast. I should be able to check all of those things off before I head back to work on Tuesday. I took Monday off to hang out with Ryan. He’s visiting from Fargo. I’m sure we’ll eat together.
01 March 2007
Well I'm about to go to bed. I'm working the overnight again. I did have a lot more energy today. It was kind of strange. I think most of it is mental, since the detox is wrapping up. I went to the gym for an hour and while it wasn't the most intense workout but I did break a sweat.
I have never looked forward to brocolli as much as I do right now. I don't think I've hurt my body. I think my body just thinks we're in a famine. If you think about it, I haven't eaten in 4 days. Who does that? I do!
I feel today will be better than yesterday. Yesterday I drank all of my mixture at work and had only water for the rest of the day. That was dumb. Today I promise not to do that. Also, I was not freezing last night. I even woke up to turn the heat down. What’s that about? Even Jesse asked me if I was cold. And I was not.
Anyway, judging by my mixture, day 4 is halfway over. I’m in a great mood. I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I certainly did not see it on Wednesday. I have not been going to the gym because I just have not had the energy. But I got a lot of sleep last night and I don’t have anything to do after 8:30 this morning. So maybe I’ll go for a walk somewhere.
But I did wake up with a lump in my throat. It’s not the lump one would have if one were sick. Instead, it’s like the lump one would have if one were really emotional and about to cry. I assure you I am not on the verge of tears, but my throat apparently thinks I am. That got me thinking about my immune system. Jesse has been sick three times this year. I was almost sick once but I was able to fight it off. I attribute it to working out and eating well. But now that I am not working out or eating, will I get sick? I hope not. Also, I had a moment of dizziness at my desk this morning. It only lasted for a few seconds and I felt fine afterward. And like I told Joel (who was up late gambling) if I feel like I am about to pass out, I will eat. I have food all around me. Joel even left me money to get a muffin out of the vending machine. Cute? Yes!
Today is Thursday. Healthy eating resumes with fruits and vegetables on Saturday. Technically, I have less than 48 hours.